"Byun Baek Hyun saranghae " I told him, making a heart with my hands. Who is Baekhyun? The most beautiful man in the world. The one that perfectly wear eyeliner and lip gloss. "Oh you Kim JaeJoong i'm gonna rape you ! " he yelled as he pushed me on the couch and sat on my lap. I wraped my hands around his hips "So just rape me already " I said with a smirk. I like to drive him crazy by talking like that with my tongue.
2 months, two months that we were together and it's just like we spent a lifetime together. I don't see my life without him anymore. He is just my life, my breath, my everything. My Baekhyun, mine...
I still remember the fisrt time I heard his voice. College Musical and Dance School. I was kind of late and choosed to cross the freshman building to gain some time and as I crossed this room and heard this voice I stopped running and stood up paralysed by it.
~ I lost my mind neorul chumanaseulte neol hanmapego mondeungosseun getting slow motion Naege marejo ige sarang iramyeon... ~
That voice was so melodious, sweet and strong at the same time, powerful and somehow, deep inside it southes me. I wanted to hear this voice again and again. I proceed to open the door to see who was singing and tell him that damn his, or maybe her, who knows, voice was so good that it gives me butterflies and goosebumps all over my body and vibrations..vibrations? Oh no shit bad time that vibration was nothing else other than my phone " Yup " " Yah Kim JaeJoong you morron! Is there one day where you won't be late ?!? Bring your ass here now hurry up! " "Oh Shit that's right i'm coming right now " That was my best friend Kim Junsu yelling at me as usual when i'm late. It's a habit that I have. As I began to run again that voice was still on my mind, still hearing it repeatedly in my head " Jae come to your sense now " i told to myself as I shooked my head.
" Hyung! At last your are here! How are we supposed to train with one person missing. Where the hell where you ? " "Jungo I think...I lost my mind...that...wow " " Lost your mind? What the heck Hyung? With this serious look on your face I think you haven't lost your mind but gone completely mad ! " I was smilling alone like a fool and changing my clothes slowly, too slowly.. "JAEJOONG COME TO YOUR SENSE NOW AND HURRY UP BEFORE I LOSE MY TEMPER FOR REAL !!!" Oooh don't worry I'm used to hear our leader shouting on me
As we were practicing I was totally dazzled so i did a lot of mistakes. I just couldn't concentrate at all.
'Who's voice is it...' that question kept coming on my mind every day as I cross the same path every day just to hear it again. Sometimes that voice was singing the same words again. It became my drug. People dring coffee in the morning to stand up the whole day, some go running and others stretching, watching TV,etc. But me, for me it was this voice that every morning i was getting up early to be there at time, I wasn't late anymore.
That day finally came. It was midterms exams and every one gathered to show what they prepared. It begins with the freshman showing all their performance " Hyung will they win? " asked Junsu " Don't you trust them? They will, I'm sure about it because they got potential and have been trained by us personnatly, the legend of this school " " You're gonna hurt your pride Hyung! " I turned my head and saw Baekhyun laughing and our pupils behind him. " Yah Baek why do you always hear only what you want? You took what I said and throw the best part of it u.u " " That you trust us? We know it Hyung. You are our Jaeniteur " said Lu Han who errupted from nowhere. " Of course I am ! I'm the father of you all but I'm - " " You're not mine ! " screamed Baekhyun. " Baek let me finish what I say when I'm talking ! Of course I'm not your father ! You and me we are the same remember? " That's right we were the same. Why? Because since the day we became the mentor of this twelve beautiful boys we both, Baekhyun and me, became closer to each other. Yeah we found ourself thinking in the same way, knowing without words what each of us wants, liking the same things. And yes that's right he was my prefered one between them all. You know, I didn't know why I was always supporting him, being by his side even when he is wrong or the one to be at fault. Always trying to reconfort him when he is breakdown. I've never been able to tell him no and he knows it because he takes it as an good advantage for him. I just love this boy. People was jealous of our relation between us. He was my best friend yeah...my best friend...that's what I thought until that day...
"Hyung..that hurts..." said Baek with a cracky voice, ready to cry. " Do..do you want a hug Baek? " he nodded as he came in my open arms. " Baek, it's okay if you want to cry, just cry, I won't say or ask anything but my arms are here to reconfort you.." And then I heard him crying silently in my arms,my shirt being wet by his tears. At that moment it hurts, hurts to see him suffer like that, hurts to see his tears falling, hurts to see Baekhyun, my Byun Baekhyun this breakdown. My heart hurts and I just wanted to kiss him and tell him Baek just leave him already, he don't diserve your love to make you suffer like that but then I came to my sense, that's unfair. His boyfriend is my friend too and after all he was so deeply in love with him, I cannot do that to him. So I just stayed the best friend that I am for him, always being here. And Baek...Baek is really in love...how could he love me, me ? Starting that day I knew being by his side would be hard for me because he wasn't anymore my best friend for me but the one I love. Yeah I fell in love with Baekhyun.
But let's go back to that voice. That voice, that damn voice ! " The next freshman to perform are Byun BaekHyun and Do Kyungsoo who will do a duet " I giggled as I pushed them to go " Hurry Up you two! Show me what you have in your belly! FIGHTING MY BABIES " Yeah believe me or not but we never heard them singing, it's a rule of this school. No one can hear a freshman singing, only freshmen between them can. So I wanted so badly to hear his voice. A boy so cute, hilarious, sweet amd handsome, how was going his voice to sound like. My heart was beating so fast. I just like voices, was his voice going to be this voice that I like ? I shook my head and started to look at them with a smile. As soon as the music played and they began to sing I opened my eyes hide and talked to myself ' THAT'S...THAT'S THAT SONG !!! OMG IT'S BAEK BAEK WHO HAVE THIS VOICE' I just couldn't believe it the man that I love is the one having this voice that south me. How can it be.
My Baaabe baby babyy marejo naege what is loooove
Inconsciously I put my hand on my heart and I sense a gaze on me. I turned my head to see Junsu looking at me " So that's why you lost your mind, I understand now " " Jungo you're late...it's not my mind anymore that I lose now but my heart " Somehow I wanted to cry, yeah because I was so in love with him...one sided love...one hurtfull sided love Guess what ? They won ! Yeah my twelves EXOistes won, i'm really proud of them. They are so good the song Mama with their dance was just mindblowing really. We did a good job with them. "Oh My God Baek that voice that you have ! So southing and it gaves goosebumps really ! " " Happy that you like it Hyung ** "
Now maybe you wanna know how did I confessed ? If it wasn't him that pushed me to do it maybe today we won't be together at all. I would have gone, crazy, completely with my deep love for him. His couple was sanking and his love was disapearing little by little. I did my best to help him and tried to make things working up again but it failed he left him. That was hard for his boyfriend to accept.
So we was still the best friends that we always have been until that day, that day that I began to have hopes to being with him one day because we were talking more and more just about us and no one else, sometime I saw him being jealous, and I was jealous as well. One morning he came dicretly from behind and jumped on my back, wraping his arms and legs around me. It surprised me. "Annyeong my Poney! " " Your Poney ? I'm a Poney now ? " Yeah my little Poney who is gonna take me out on his back" I laughed and agreed leaving the house. " So where does my Bunny want to go ? " " I'm your Bunny? " " Yes because Byuniie make me think about bunny so you are. " " Hmm let's go to the park to eat Ice cream " He was just like a little child that was very happy to go buy a ice cream. I tooked him on the parc, as soon as he saw the Ice Cream truck he was giggling " There it is Hyung. Hurry up ! " " What flavor do you want Baek? " " I want vanilla and strawberry " He got down from my back and I bought two Ice cream, one vanilla-strawberry and one cassis-chocolate. We went to sit on the grass against a tree " I really like cassis let me take some please " " No no way, I can't that's cassis I can't " " Pleaase Hyung! " he was pleading me and I was just licking my ice cream. But he is strong with me, he knew my weak point. As he began to tickle me he snaped away my ice cream and started to lick the cassis. " Oops I almost eat everything " he said while ginving it back to me . I took it and started eating again " It's an indirect kiss you know " " That's right. But for a first a kiss I want it to be a real first kiss, a memorable on " Oh my gad my heart was beating so fast, but I had to thank my self control that helped me hide my emotion. He did wanna kiss me but he was waiting for the good time. I was completely day dreaming and hopes got bigger and bigger. But the rain take me out of my dream "Hyung it's raining ! Let's go somwhere to hide ! " He took my hand and began to run until we reached a bridge where we went hiding under it. We were all wet and then I thought my heart was going to stop. He pulled me closer, took my arms and wraped them around his waist as he put his head on my chest. At that moment I just wanted to kiss him but I didn't have the force I was still asking myself ' does he loves me? Should I kiss him? Is it the right time ?' We just stayed like that until the rain stopped and we headed back to my house by his wish. After eating together we was sitting on the couch with him sitting between my legs. Ifelt so good I felt so good then but I wanted to tease him so I started tickling him. Somehow he managed to turn around and sat on my lap, wrapping his hands on my neck. He then kiss my cheek 'Oh god my self control don't leave me now please ' " You kissed my cheek, but the other is jealous " " Ooh like that it won't be anymore " he told as he kissed the other cheek. " Someone else is also jealous you know.." And this boy was just reading on my mind! Every move that I wanted to do he did them as soon as they popped up on my mind. Soon I felt a sweet pair of lips on mine 'He kissed me ! He did kiss me first' I was in heaven, I kissed him . After all the sacrifices I did he was there on Itop of me kissing me and God it felt so good. The best kiss I've ever had. Yeah this was that first memorable kiss.
As days went on, I managed to confess my love. I told through songs how I really felt about him. I managed to do it because by telling me I love you he gave me the strengh to do so. He then confessed with a song that made me burst into tears
We were just best friend and we share our secret, lately something as I lied in my bed, a voice inside my head Why don't you kiss him, why don't you tell him Why don't you let him see the feelings that you hide Cause he'll never known, if you never show the way you feel inside
All that time we were both hiding our feelings. While I thougt that he will never ever loves me, him was thinking the same thing. When he was crying on my arms and I just wanted to kiss him and tell him that me I will never hurt you, he was silently wishing that I would do so. We are both truly in love with each other but no one of us never show it or confess.
So today it's our two months together. Two months that I'm in heaven with my fiancé. Two month that I keep falling over and over again for him. Two months, the most precious month for me in my life.
While remembering all this he was looking at me with a smile " Here you are, you came back from your thoughts?for " I love you you know and don't ever try to leave me !" I said as I pulled him close for a kiss. Right know i'm happy, happy to be by his side. I want to stay by his side forever, with him Jeong Won, and who knows maybe other child. I want it to be our happy ending.